The inner me

Yesterday I have a small conversation with my mum.
I can say is all about what I want to have it.
I'll bet you know what I want to have it right??
But my mum kinda disagree with it. She keep on telling me to continue my study first and after my studies I can do whatever and have whatever that I wanted. Don't you think it's kinda unfair for me?! Look everywhere! Everyone is doing the same thing but I am not. I am the one who need to wait, wait and wait. It's sounds that I am so desperate with it but I am not. Cause, I found what I've wanted.
I don't want to keep telling lies to you. I don't want you to worry about me when I'm going out.
I want to tell you the truth but you keep on rejecting me! You are the one who makes me wanted to keep telling lies and dishonest to you!
You don't understand me. You keep on using your own thought and put it into my thought. Mum, everything has change. Everyone has change also.
Not only this thing makes me stress with it. Even I do what, I read what, I go where or even my friends, I also will get nag by you.
Ya, I know you worry about me such as where I go or I going out with who. But, please don't complain over my friends. It's not their problem. It's your problem. You are the one who always thinks negative things. Then you blame it all over my friends.
You think I am bad. But I am not! If I want to be bad! I don't need a very long time. I can just turn into a bad girl in 1 second.
You always thinks I am bad. When you scold me, I'm always the quiet one. I can't even have the chance to express my feelings out. You think I'm happy to get scolded by you?? You think I don't care when I get scolded by you?? You are wrong! I want to express my feelings out but I know my tears will start to drool down. That's why I always keep quiet when I get scold or nag from you. If I say something out, you'll say I'm attacking you.
What the~~~
Anyhow, I will try my best to talk to my mum. I won't give up that easily.

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But, it's my own comment and I am trying to express my feelings at my own blog.
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